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The past weekend I had mixed emotions, anxiety, hope, despair and a mix of all the other vibes cos it was Election Day in Nigeria. I pray for a new Nigeria, but I have doubts in my heart; I pray for change, but would it come? Will Nigerianism allow the chosen of God to rule? These thoughts kept me thinking and my spirit man in despair. Every 10 mins, I am on social media, gleaning for hope in the write-up and pictures from different people on the ground to vote. My heart sunk deeper. I muttered, “let the bloodshed and killing end. Let them give the presidential winning to the one they want”, my frustration in full 100% mode.

And it took me back to God’s promises to his people. When I pray, I know God has done it, yet I am afraid that it will not happen; I forget at the moment that I need complete and total faith in God that what He has said He would surely bring to pass.

Sometimes I feel like I am Peter; when Peter saw Jesus walking on water, he had faith and asked the Lord to bid him walk on water, and honestly, he did walk on water. Like every Christian, he started to focus on the waves, (the impossible problems) he began to sink. Trust me; I have been in this story so many times in my life. I leave a prayer or a service all fired up; I am walking on water side by side with Jesus, tongue out to the devil; then I look around at the things that are not working, the storms and winds waiting for me, and I let go of the hand of Jesus. I start to sink, sink into despair, sink into doubt, sink into fear.

I am still learning to look beyond the waves and the storms, and I am still learning to look to the anchor, I am still learning to calm my storm by being still sometimes, focusing on things within my control and not allowing the things beyond my control be my focus, cos that is when I tend to lose the plot and start to sink.

Don’t worry about the storms, they will come and go. Breathe. You’ve got this.