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Today have been quite a day, one would think it’s friday so everything should breeze through but naaaa, It was as intense as a Monday or a Wednessday. I talk alot about my growing up cos it is what shaped my adulthood and how I think today so bear with me and enjoy my story for today…

Growing up, I always felt strange, different, moody, wanting things done a certain way, sensitive, artistic, I could work up myself in an emotional frenzy that I cannot see any good in myself. I bet my family didnt understand me either, when I am in my moods, they just let me be, they felt, “she is going to come around anyway”, sometimes for days I would’nt come around, I would want to be alone, myself against the world,

I started to see myself as different, inferior to my siblings , I went deeper into my shell, I was not satisfied, I started to check why I was different, was I damaged goods? am I normal? why do I have mood swings? Why do I want things to be done in perfection? why do I go at things with so much passion? I confided in my close friend, Adolph Addison, he knew my pain, he knew I was yearning for answers, he gave me a book called “Spirit Controlled Temprament”, second edition by Tim Lahaye (of blessed memory).

I stayed in the room and read the book, page to page, had my notes and wrote down things, I actually felt He knew me cos the things I was going through, all the feelings I had stored up were not in my head, it was all in his book and it actually existed, my goodness, I started crying, I cried so hard cos I was relieved that I was actually normal and there are people like me.

Guess what people? I am a Melancholy……….

Maestro Melancholy
Introverted Maestro Melancholy is often referred to as the ‘dark’ temperament. Actually she is the richest of all the temperaments, for she is an analytical, self-sacrificing, gifted, perfectionist type, with a very sensitive emotional nature. By nature Maestro is prone to be an introvert, but since her feelings predominate, she is given over to a variety of moods, gloomy and depressed; withdrawn and can be quite antagonistic. Maestro Melancholy is a very faithful friend, but, unlike the Sanguine, she does not make friends easily. She is perhaps the most dependable of all the temperaments, for her perfectionist tendencies do not permit her to be a shirker or let others down. Occasionally, when she is in one of his great moods of inspiration, she may produce some great work of art or genius. Melancholies usually find their greatest meaning in life through personal sacrifice. As a general rule, no other temperament has a higher IQ or more creativity or imagination than a Melancholy, and no one else is as capable of such high-quality ‘perfect’ work.

Strengths: Sensitive, perfectionist, faithful friend, self-sacrificing. Weaknesses: Self-centred, suspicious, over-sensitive, pessimistic, moody.  Most of the world’s great composers, artists, musicians, inventors, philosophers, theoreticians, theologians, scientists, and dedicated educators have been predominantly Melancholies.

No temperament has as much natural potential when energised by the Holy Spirit as the Melancholy. all the prophets were Melancholy, as was Solomon and the ApostleJohn.  

http://www.joydigitalsa.com/everyday-life/the-4-spirit-controlled-temperaments/

The part about the book I love is that it doesnt just tell you why you do what you do but how the Holy Spirit can help you overcome the challenges of your temprament. As I grew in age and career and other things influenced my behaviour, the dormant tempraments started to manifest.. so in the workplace, guess who shows up?

Extroverted Rocky Choleric is the hot, quick, active, practical, and strong-willed temperament. He is often self-sufficient and very independent. He tends to be decisive and opinionated, finding it easy to make decisions for himself as well as for others. Rocky Choleric thrives on activity. He is not frightened by adversities, he has dogged determination and often succeeds where others fail. The Choleric is a born leader. He always lands on his feet. Rocky Choleric’s emotional nature is the least developed part of his temperament. He does not sympathise easily with others, nor does he naturally show or express compassion. He has a well-organised mind, though details usually bore him. Once he has started towards a goal, he may run roughshod over individuals that stand in his way. The more Choleric your children’s temperaments, the more intense should be your prayers for their conversion between third and fifth grade, while they still retain sensitivity to spiritual things. Strengths: Strong-willed, self-disciplined, practical, leader, optimistic. Weaknesses: hot-tempered, cruel, bossy, self-sufficient. Cholerics might consider careers that require leadership, motivation, and productivity, provided they do not require too much attention to detail and analytical planning.  Most entrepreneurs are Cholerics. Since Cholerics are not by nature good delegators of responsibility; they tend to evaluate negatively the efforts of others. He oozes self-confidence, is extremely goal-conscious, and can inspire others to envision his goals.

Cholerics have a built-in promotional ability and do well in sales, teaching (but always practical subjects), politics, military service, sports, and many other endeavours. Western civilisation has benefitted much from its Rocky Cholerics. But it has suffered much from them also. The world’s greatest generals, dictators, and gangsters have been predominantly Choleric. What made the difference? Their moral values and motivations.

The Apostle Paul was a Choleric. He was a prime persecutor of the Early Church before he was saved. He later pushed himself relentlessly until he had preached the Gospel around the then known world. Who but a Choleric would crawl out from under a rock pile and the next day walk twelve miles to preach the Gospel? Yet when filled with the Holy Spirit, Paul exhibited a gentleness and compassion that was contrary to his natural temperament.

The truth is I still struggle, I struggle everyday, I go back to the Holy Spirit, I ask for His help, I read books from the bible written by Apostle Paul, John, James and Solomon and how they tackle life issues.

If you are like me, looking for answers and climbing your mountain everyday, I salute your courage… keep climbing with me and the Holy Spirit be our guide.

Yours Sincerely

CIA